August 28, 2008

Yesterday was already going in the books as a crapy day. Jeremy was leaving for a very long deployment that would take him away during the holidays, which is the hardest time to be without your spouse. After sending Jeremy off, the kids and I went with the Pullyman's to eat and to AC Moore (craft store). I was very tired from all the crying, and long night, so we went home and decided to take naps. Kevin of course found this time to do some gaming on the big TV since no one would be kicking him off. I layed down, however I could never really fall asleep. I got up and decided to watch some TV.

That's when the call came.....

My mom called to say that my prescious Granny had taken her last breath about 45 minutes before she called. I knew she was sick, however the nurses thought she was getting better. I spoke to her on Monday, and she sounded horrible. Her voice was not even hers. I told her that I loved her, and she told me she loved me, I am so glad I was able to hear that one last time. My Granny was the most wonderful person in the world. I love her so much and will miss her more than words can describe. I am only sad for my selfish reasons, I was not ready for her to go. I wanted her to be around until she was 110, actually that is what she wanted too. That was a joke she said to all of us. Her quality of life was no where near what it should have been, and she was miserable. I know this, and that is the only comfort I have in all of this, is that she is better now. I will miss her sweet soft hands, and playing with the loose skin on the back of her arms. I will miss talking about Big Brother with her, and how Alabama Football is going. She always had some kind of joke to say, she loved to give me a hard time through Jeremy. I am so happy that I have her recliner here in Jacksonville with me. When she got her medical one, I took the one that she had for years, it was always her seat, however she would let me sit in it, when no one else could. Granny always made sure I was taken care of, and I owe her so much for that. She is the reason I am who I am today. If she had not taught me to be strong, and not depend on anyone, I could not make it as a military spouse. She taught me to take care of myself and be strong. That I needed no one in life to survive. I always had her love, and I always will. The next week will be the hardest ever for me. I am glad to have friends that will be there for me, to give me love and support.